Hohoho.
Its been ages since I went online to blog.

Life has been helluva of a rush.
Been too busy too tired cant be even bothered to blog.
Meeting of friends has been almost to a sharp halt.

Feel so bad this time round.
Haven been getting my butts to the mall to get pressies.
Not even for Andrew.

Yday I received qt abit from my colleagues, which made it
times 2 worse.
So today im hitting the mall w andrew to get his present.
Furby got me a really pwwweetttyy present.
Thank you baby brother. HAHA.

So hows life for you at the other side of the computer?
Hope its all in control unlike mine.
I feel like im riding on a horse, raised up high, and its galloping at
such a such pace, its hard to fathom.

But, once i get used to the speed, I will tighten up the reins and be in cntrl.
So... giddy up!
And lets gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Merry Christmas all... :)

Happy Birthday Ashin!

My forever Rockstar!
I will keep believing..
I will keep chasing
my dreams...

Funny you know lately!
Everytime before Andrew hugs me,
its our both bellys that meet before anything else.
omgosh. I think we are really hitting the roof on the scale.

Anyways...

想要叫那就叫
想甩就甩跳就跳
跳更高别靠腰要靠心脏的火药
要不要难道要别人帮你决定好
好不好就现在抢回自己的心跳
心跳跳跃狂奔奔跑

dont feel like doing it.
dont feel like even trying.
can dont force me.
can I dont try to make it right.
can you leave me alone.

most imptly, can you pls dont judge me and my decisions.

" if you cant handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best. "

darn tired. Have been going home late everyday..
Esp this week.
Suddenly I see, life is not gg to be simple again for me.

arghh... I'm a lil tired, a lil discouraged,
but I've had colleagues who actually hopes to have the positive energy,
she sees in me.

A lil positive in the beginning,
and the lights slowly get darker as I walk deeper into the corporate tunnel.
Gimme 2 years.... Just give me 2 years to walk on.

Yst I was at the Movies watching 2012.
As much as I didnt want to catch that part. movie,
I watched it.

Somehow u might say that I think alot ( I know I do)
But I feel that last week's Bodyworld and this week's 2012 has
somewhat integrated into a singular theme to me.

I look at it, and it all comes down to beauty is really skin deep.
2012 talks abt human nature, the defaulted expectations that is nonetheless pure ugliness.
Like when the world ends, the strive for survival is at expense of other's.
Also, when it ends, there is nothing left, we are all equal. AS we came into this earth.
SO when you look back at ur life, whats left// what did u do in this world that was sth which you can boast of?
Was it the amt of As that you got? the number of guys that tried chasing you in your life?
the fat account of yours thats sitting in the bank?
the fact that your weighing machine tells of a more ego-boosting number then your peers?
or the number of peeps that you managed to pisst off just to feel good?
Can i say that you are brave? IS that even worth admirable?

In bodyworlds, it left me deep impression throughout my work week.
I just feel that, the volunteers who contributed to science were really magnanimous.
They might have left the world, but their contributions will really enlighten alot in years to come.
What was displayed was everything inside/beneath our skin.
And when the skin's off, I realise, everybody looks pretty much the same.
I cant even tell the difference. If we are all to be the same....
I guess this only shows that the ultimate differentiator is what you have done your actions/thoughts/ behaviour
that distincts you from your peers or others.

What does this show,
Beauty is only skin deep.
I only do things that make me feel better.
Not at the expense of others, of course.
And money? Its really the root of all evil, but i guess you can consider it a good tell tale sign of the human heart.
I do things and explain only when I feel like it.
There is no obligations to any.


Will prolly still be thinking
And, I need a holiday break soon.
Those overseas kind.

Just did something darn wrong,
but it felt darn right.

Forever friend knows.

Shame on you if you fool me once,
Shame on me if you fool me twice.

Spooks you little old whore

ohmygosh,
i've to blurt!
Ystday in the midst of like rushing a report for my boss,
and i had to borrow a highilghter from this one male colleague.

And today,
in the midst of sth else, he marched over and give me a concern look and said,
"erm Corrine, ystday I passed you the highlighter I dont seem to have it back..."
he stands there smilinig at me, waiting for my reply.

And me? I was caught unaware, i cldnt buh-lee-fffff wad i hear.
"huh? u mean i didnt pass you back YOUR highlighter?"
he hurriedly replied. "No leh, i dun seem to have it leh."
I immediately took one highlighter from my stationery box and nonchanlantly passed
any yellow highlighter and said " Oh okay den, you can have mine then".
Obiviously knowing me I had to DRAMATICALLY make the effort to seem like it didnt matter.

And i have to add on, "Anyway its our company;s one. so here you go!"

Felt like telling him straight in the face, getlostdontbothermeloser, youpettymiserysorrybitch. 
whichi obiviously i didnt.

But... Am i entitled to laugh now?
With exasperation of course.

since I've been supporting Ashin! its been 6 years since 25 Oct 2003.
Wow. I rmb it was only yst tt i was blogging abt the 5 years.
and now its 6!

these 6 years I've grown up qt a bit, under circumstances i'd say.
moulded by the surroundings, situation, people and time.

6 years, my best memory was SDHZZTW in PS.
My best concert was Tian Kong Zhi Cheng 03,
and my fave mayday period was Shi Guang Ji!
Mayday's songs really brought me through alot.

Oh, the last mayday concert, i was busy taking the concernt FAns,
just like i did in their first concert 6 years ago. ;)


.
Thank you, though you will nvr see this.

Happen to chance upon my prev blog:
I shall rmb this

'人生只有一次，
很公平的，不管你是誰，在世界的哪一個角落活著。
每個人都只有一次的機會，
在生命的單行道上，
創造自己的美好。
 
昨天很好，
但是我只想抓住這一刻，讓它更美好。
昨天今天明天，
都要一直一直很好。
 
在我閉上眼睛的那一天，
我希望我可以很滿足的說，
這是我用生命中的每個日子創作出來的最好成就：
「我的一生」。
 
也許你說，有很多事情，
不是渺小的自己可以控制與掌握的。
但是至少，我可以決定，
怎麼看待自己的今天。'
 

五月天阿信

Sometimes, life gets so busy,
i get caught up in the rat race,
sometimes I become part of whats expected of me in the society.
I really hope that someone will once in a while hold me back,
remind me, what it was once like.
that very very initial feeling, that raw feeling, those ignorance
that brought me bliss. brought me happiness of being me and myself again.
 

I miss you baby! :(:( 
hurry come back!
so i can flick your cheeky. :(

at least im talking to you at this moment. mayb i will be guai when u come back. :)

My first time taking a break from work, paid leave.
Feels... good.
Its refreshing. I wake up to not having to rush,
and i get to do things aimlessly.
Feels good to break the momentum, the tension that has been strung high at work.

Hmm.. I had a fruitful day, visited ex-colleagues, went out with Oinky.
Im always glad and filled w happiness when Oinky tells me she is happy at work. :)
Jia you Oinky, and thank you for baking the extra pineapple tarts for me, w lapis, & the cookie you stole at work.
Hahahs.

Im back in SIM, this time waiting for Andrew to knock off from class.
Maybe its cause I was still in school like beginning of this year, or cause
I was here a month plus ago for my graduation.
Which explains, why when I walk through the hallway, I didnt have anything much to reminise about.
Or have I choose to subconciously block out things that I choose not to rmb.

But one thing for sure, being in school, has a very secure feeling.
Something back to basics, where students like me last time were groom to have certain thinking,
certain perception that once we have attained some kinda paper qualifications,
we will have nvr ending promise that we will live the high and almighty, the glamourous,
a bed of roses kinda life.
When otherwise none. Ok, scratch that I didnt mean NONE.
I meant NOT THAT FAST. not in say the first 2 years?

I see students here studying, and i can rmb last time when i was here,
I was filled w aspirations, that once im out, Im gone and flying off.
Far and high from the hell-hole of studying.
I dont think Im gg anywhere near books anytime soon.
im done studying - I'm pretty sure --- for now.

Working life to me now is like... I dont know.
Nothing that bad, but nothing much to talk about too.
The learning curve at work is somewhat not that steep alr,
colleagues-wise im rather comfy with them, them laughing at me always too.
Not that im complaining but dont you think school is always overating the life out there.

Its no wonder, I like desperate housewives so much.
I prefer to stay home and watch mindless shows that it numbs my brain.

Good Saturday afternoon.

Today, I decided to chuck my phone and left it as it is and not look at it for the entire day till I ended work.
Liana msged me but I didnt feel the need to reply.
No, not today.
Leave it as it is.
Sth out of kindness but no thanks not in the mood.
Sometimes, I think im pretty used to not explicitly state out wad i feel. cux Maybe it doenst matter?
Or i've gotten used to it to keep certain topics/subjects mum.

As im doing sth now,
i am kept reminded that WOW
I've somethings in life that nothing, nobdy can ever take away from me.
I feel happy and contented :)

As I lay in the dark w a laptop on my stomach,
I hear some Jay-ish song through the window.
And i feel at peace.
NIcesiazer.
Anws, I think I gotta start drinking more water
cux symptons are appearing and im prett freaked.
can i be less lazy pls.
pls pls pls.


oh btw, I saw Bong @ HV today :) Hiya Bongers

Its Sunday, I'm in love.
the weather has been great,
waking up to lazy mornings w/o rushing.
I'm in love.

Except that Monday is Sunday's neighbour.
Realised that my prev posts has been rather bleak, suggestive, ambigous,
But life hasnt been really bad at all.
Or so I try to make myself think, I've faced worse stuff..

Anyways, ystnite Mooncake gathering at Ah Ma's house was pretty eventful.
Realise that since I started work, I've been darn lazy abt pretty uch everything.
But im glad I made a pt to visit my extended family more,
and with Andrew tagging along, Im happier! :D

Yeah, I shld up myself and stop being lazy.
Do things that i've tasked myself.
2009 is coming to an end. Oh man, but it wasnt that bad.
:)

I'll do what it takes till I reach the sky.
Fly away breakaway.
I'll spread my wings and learn how to fly.

Make a wish take a chance and breakaway.

I have always said I like people who are serious.
People like Andrew & Ashin.
So what happens when I, myself am not serious.
Do i get to dislike/hate/ grow disappointed in myself.
Am I entitled to do so?